And here I thought Catholics were supposed to take the "love thy neighbour as thyself" part of Christianity seriously…

Once you get over your romanticized, touchy-feely, ahistorical, echt-autonomous, a- or anti-sacramental "Christianity" and are ready to actually love your Mother, your real, historical, yet eternal Mother, then take instruction, get baptized and confirmed in the Catholic Church, confess your sins, and start munching on the Medicine of Immortality.

Do not come here and pretend that you know the first thing about my understanding of Christianity based on a single post. First read the rest of what I have written, and then come back and tell me where I got it wrong.

There is only one Bridegroom – yes, and I'm glad you've seen the truth of that – who has only one Bride, the Catholic Church. She is with Him and bound to Him, within this exact history and beyond it, eternally.

Once you get over your romanticized, touchy-feely, ahistorical, echt-autonomous, a- or anti-sacramental "Christianity" and are ready to actually love your Mother, your real, historical, yet eternal Mother, then take instruction, get baptized and confirmed in the Catholic Church, confess your sins, and start munching on the Medicine of Immortality.

For the Eucharist is better than the purest, strongest iron you can ever lift. It is tender as a Lamb, and weightier than the whole world. It both nourishes and trains. And most important, the Eucharist exists – not as an airy idea, and not "by faith," but as Him, the crucified and risen Lord you purportedly seek but are deathly afraid of, as His real Flesh and real Blood in your exact time, existing "ex opere operato," serenely independently of your or anybody's "faith" and of all and any of your powers.

If you are weak, the Eucharist will make you strong. If you are strong, the Eucharist will make you humble. As humble as you want. And then, very possibly, it will make you more humble than you want. Of course.

And start thinking about an obituary notice for yourself that joyously says that you died "fortified with the sacraments of Holy Mother Church."

And then maybe some very wise and very holy Catholics will give a rat's ass about your spiritual awakening.

Or not.

But in the New Testament, the Apostle Paul said to "work out your OWN faith with fear and trembling." I grew up in Christian churches and yet I still simply had to walk away from Christianity as a religion for some time, just to make up my own mind. Because I'm afraid that the Christian religion in the West is very, very lost.

For a while, I wondered if I still believed in Him. I wondered if maybe all my atheist friends were correct about it all being just a myth fashioned by the Old World. You know, those folks who built pyramids that you cannot put a razord blade between the stones, mapped the sky, started civilization who "just didn't know any better." The big dummies and their silly 'god' ideas! We've got ScienceMagicks now! We smart big! (Side note, it was those very Ancient Peoples of all branches that has helped me build my faith into something formidable)

It was the LORD Himself that chased me. Yes, He chased me. Who on Earth could tell you why, Didact? I'm an asshole. I'm sinful. I'm intellectual but not 'smart' with my life choices. I'm divorced, single and mostly useless to society. I haven't even done my Prime Directive, so to speak, and fathered a child. Yet, there it is: He chased me down in ways that make a Hound of Hell seem downright docile.

Many years later, I am here, with a faith that I will not apologize for. You should stop immediately saying things about what a sinner you are, how you don't know this and that. The LORD is chasing you. Let Him catch you, Brother. It seems to me you're already His, so let Him.

You will have nothing at all to show for this, mind you. Save for contentment, boldness, peace of mind, the ability to think even more clearly above the fray of modernity, comfort in the midst of troubles (and you will have those still, even more so because when it comes to Darkness, when you see it and turn away, Darkness sees you turn. It covets you back), the ability to truly reason beyond sciencemagick talk today. Paul called it "The mind of Christ" and as peculiar as it sounds, he wasn't kidding.

Walk right into His temple, right up to His throne, and tell Him who you are. He already knows. I don't know your real name, but I've let Him know you're coming by. 🙂